Tuesday, December 30, 2008
38 Weeks Pregnant
5 weeks 38 weeks
My how my belly has changed!!! I am now 38 weeks pregnant. One more week to go. The induction date is scheduled for Monday January 5th. I am so ready to be done and hold my little boy. Shock has not worn off that in just 6 days I will have a toddler AND a newborn. Yowza!
Sunday, December 28, 2008
I Forgot Too Easily
Well, after living without him for 5 months, I have apparently forgotten ALL of these annoying habits. And let me tell you, they came back full force this weekend. Maybe its because I am sick and 38 weeks pregnant, but man oh man, did these habits drive me bonkers. How horrible of a wife am I that I was a little glad he was leaving today so I could have the bed to myself??? No more snoring, no getting kicked, no one taking up my side of the bed, no one's elbows in my face, no one's breath on me (I HATE feeling someone breathe on me, especially when I am trying to sleep). Please do not get me wrong, I love my husband dearly and wouldn't trade him for anyone in the world. But at 3am when I haven't been sleeping for 3 hours, I really want him to be somewhere else.
Please send happy money thoughts our way so that we can afford a bigger bed when we move so these problems will be resolved! 2 adults and 2 cats should NOT be sharing a double bed. This should be illegal!
Saturday, December 27, 2008
Feline Fridays - A day late
Friday, December 26, 2008
Merry Christmas!!!
Unfortunately I'm not thinking quite clearly and have yet to get a picture of Jordan, Dave, and I together since October, so hopefully I can get one before the weekend is over and Dave returns to Norfolk.
Anyway, we had a lovely Christmas. The day started out with me baking peanut butter cookies. I taught Jordan the valuable lesson of learning how to lick the spatula!
Then, after an unsuccessful attempt to nap, Grandpa came over and took us to the airport to pick up Daddy!!!
Then we opened presents at home. Jordan got lots of books and a cool Fisher Price Little People house from Mommy and Daddy. What does it say of Mommy that both her and Jordan's favorite noise it makes is the toilet flushing??? Seriously, its so cool!
After that, we headed on over to Grandma and Grandpa's house where Jordan got the coolest present of all... her first train set!!! This gift is probably the best thing she has ever gotten in her entire life. She is in love with the trains and has such a good time with them. Today she skipped breakfast (unheard of!) to play with her trains. Mommy is already looking on ebay to get more track pieces. Ha ha!
But the best present of all? Having Dave/Daddy home... no comparison. We're so blessed to have our family together for the holiday that presents, food, etc... nothing else matters to me. We're together, as we should be!
I hope everyone out there in blog world was able to experience a wonderful Christmas like I did.
Tuesday, December 23, 2008
Always around the holidays
I haven't been on the blog for a few days... it was a CRAZY weekend. Trip to triage at the hospital Friday late afternoon because of insane pain I was having. Dave coming home, thinking we were going to have Ben (who of course is quite content in his mansion and showing no signs of coming out in 2008). At my 37 week appointment today, the doctor said I was still only 1cm dilated and wasn't showing any signs of going into labor anytime soon, so no induction date has been set. Hopefully next week??? All the pain I was having this weekend was because of how Ben is being carried. Ie, out and LOW. All my muscles are shot at this point and are unable to handle the strain Ben is putting on me. Lovely. But Dave will be back for the weekend, so Jordan and I are quite thrilled to get to see him TWICE this month!
Sunday we helped my parents decorate their Christmas tree. It looks lovely. Jordan is quite impressed with the ornamental red trumpets that actually make noise when you blow through them. These were always my favorites growing up as I found the noise fun to produce and it also had an annoyance affect on my family. Seems Jordan has inherited this from me! I don't think she understands the concept of Christmas, so its probably a good thing we haven't really gone all out this year. Next year we'll probably do the whole Santa thing and a stocking, when she can appreciate it more.
Friday, December 19, 2008
Feline Fridays
Roy is an exceptionally tolerant cat when it comes to toddlers. Lately he's been letting Jordan pile things on him. Here he is from a few weeks ago with a magnadoodle, a sailor hat, under the sailor hat are about a dozen crayons, and construction paper. He stayed like this about fifteen minutes before getting up. Good kitty!!
Thursday, December 18, 2008
And the winner is....
That's right... Jordan tripped at daycare over NOTHING and smashed her face into a bookshelf. Why does she have this habit of getting black eyes or a scraped up face near holidays?
I love this photo. This is a common occurrence lately. She loves to have her cars/doll on the tray when she's eating.
Monday, December 15, 2008
More Degrees Means Less Common Sense
I love my dad. I've always been a total daddy's girl and am proud of it. I also hold my dad in very high regards. In first grade we were supposed to do an interview of someone we admired, and I interviewed my dad. He's one of the smartest people I know. He is pretty important in his field (theoretical chemistry) and is quite sought out by many people for his expertise and knowledge. Yet for some reason, when my dad graduated from MIT with his Phd, he was required to swap the new title of Doctor for his common sense.
Here are some examples of my dad's lack of common sense:
- He has put his shorts on backwards and did not realize so (they were short shorts... could NOT have been comfortable even worn the correct way)
- He has had to pay full price on a turnpike because when he entered the turnpike he thought that the "ticket" lanes meant you had to have a ticket already, which he didn't because he was ENTERING the turnpike, so he took the "easy pass" lane.
- He once went through a stop sign on the way home from work (blamed me because I was talking to him... even though he drives home this way EVERY DAY since 1978) so he backed up to make the stop sign
- He put on my sister's purple coat once mistaking it for his green one... My dad is 6 feet tall and my sister is 5'1"
- He froze my lizard's crickets on the mile + walk home from the petstore in the dead of winter.
- After living in the same house with Dave since 2004, he still needed directions.
- When teaching me how to drive, he insisted I learn how to back up into a parking space. Keep in mind, this was the FIRST time I had ever been behind the wheel. So naturally I ran into the "Principal Parking Only" sign and dented the car.
Anyway, the list could go on and on.
None of these instances make me think any less of my dad. I just assume he's too busy working out some major science problem in his mind instead of thinking about anything else. Which is most likely true.
Sunday, December 14, 2008
36 Weeks Pregnant
Front view Side view
I think Ben has dropped. Especially from the front view, my belly looks like its hanging much lower. And its harder down near the bottom than it ever has been. Oh and the other clue is the increase of pelvic and hip pain. Nothing unbearable though. It is those damn hormones that are making me want to scream "GET THIS KID OUT OF ME!" I am an emotional wreck 80% of the time, and poor Dave probably is damning the webcams we got because now he has to see me cry as well as hear me when we talk in the evenings.
I seriously cannot imagine getting any bigger in the next 4 weeks. Its just not possible. Besides, even my longest shirts are now getting a bit short, and I am NOT buying new maternity clothes a month before I have my baby. So I apologize world if I start showing skin, but get over it!
Here is a video I took the other day. I was debating whether or not I should put it on the blog, but it is just too weird NOT to share. I still think one of these days Ben is going just rip open my skin and start dancing like the alien at the end of the movie Spaceballs.
Success!!
Yesterday I decided to make my grandmother's recipe for peanut butter cookies. I LOVE this recipe. It is my favorite and it is not shared with anyone as it is the ONLY family recipe we seem to have that was passed down multiple generations. Jordan asked for some dough, so I gave her a little. She ate it again. I distracted her with bananas until the first batch was out of the oven. Once they cooled she ate 2 and kept asking for more! I can't believe it!! Success!
I'm thinking that for her birthday instead of getting or making a cake I will just bake a giant peanut butter cookie and decorate it. =)
Wednesday, December 10, 2008
This time last year
Tuesday, December 9, 2008
Monday, December 8, 2008
Just some numbers for you
17 days until Christmas and Dave comes home for 2.5 days.
14 days until I am technically full term with this pregnancy.
5 more days to go to work over a 2 weeks span.
3 days without Facebook access (a whole other story... Lets just say pregnancy brain does not favor me)
Sunday, December 7, 2008
Stay-Puff Marshamallow Toddler
I am shocked that after living in Pittsburgh since 1997, Dave never went sledding. He never built a snowman with a carrot for a nose. He never enjoyed the fresh falling snow before it was turned so grayish slush by cars. I want my children to experience this snow. I want them to have fun with mother nature and not just sit inside because it is too cold to go outside, or just see it on TV because we live somewhere too warm. So here is my little snow bunny, nearing her second year of life, and enjoying freshly fallen snow.
On a walk around the block.
Friday, December 5, 2008
New discoveries this week
A friend pointed out last night that at least Jordan isn't watching Barney... at 6:30 in the morning I am not sure they are much different in my mind. But just in case, lets hope Jordan never discovers that incredibly creepy and annoying purple dinosaur.
Tuesday, December 2, 2008
Defending Our Territory
So I have debated putting these sorts of photos on my blog in fear that my mothering skills will be criticized. My daughter, like the cats, is in love with the windowsill. She would spend all day, every day perched up there with books and snacks if I let her. Once in awhile I do, when I am particularly tired, only to get her down to change diapers or for meals.
Occasionally Jordan will share her space with Royboy... but as a general rule the windowsill is Jordan Territory. Today we had friends over, and as a precaution, Jordan spent much of the playdate at ... you guessed it... the windowsill. To be fair, she did take a break to guard her books on the bookshelf and to eat lunch. The playdate went well, both toddlers played in opposite areas of the apartment until after lunch. Then blood got spilled. Unfortunately for the other toddler, Jordan felt her space was being invaded and "dropped" a book on the unsuspecting toddler. I would like to think this was an accident, but my better judgement says that Jordan did it on purpose. My deepest apologies to the bleeding toddler and the mom!!
Monday, December 1, 2008
34 Weeks Pregnant
Holy smokes I am having a baby next month!!! 3 more weeks until I am considered full term... where has the time gone??? A few people have said they think Ben will come early. Lets hope not. As much as I would love to not be pregnant anymore, I would love for Dave to be here for Ben's birth even more.
This pregnancy is going so fast, and surprisingly well considering I am working and taking care of a very active toddler by myself. Pain is pretty much diminished now, except for braxton hicks contractions every day or every other day. Last Friday I began to lose some of my mucus plug. Then quickly emailed my friends to tell them and gross them out. Ha ha!! Decided to spare my family that detail though, they were getting sick enough with all the turkey leftovers.
And if one more checkout lady at the grocery store makes a comment about how I look like I'm due much sooner, I will punch someone... Seriously.
Sunday, November 30, 2008
Saturday, November 22, 2008
32 Weeks Pregnant!
OK, so I am posting this photo about 5 days late... better late than never! I am now almost 33 weeks pregnant. I have less than 2 months left until this little guy is estimated to arrive. My OB appointments are every 2 weeks... which makes things feel like they are going faster. I can't believe he'll be here so soon. That makes me a very happy mommy!
Thursday, November 20, 2008
Sometimes I Really Like Math!
Of course I won't do that, I would feel too horrible for our project coordinator. As far as I know the office has not hired another full time employee to replace me, therefore leaving our coordinator with 3 undergraduate students, 1 graduate student, 1 post-doc, and our boss. EEK!
I will, however, be using SOME of my sick time. It would be too stupid not to!
Tuesday, November 18, 2008
Speaking up for Myself
Now, let me tell you how many times I have sat at home lonely... 73 days. 1 month of that I kept my mouth shut (except for a blog post here or there, and a few emails to close friends) while I sat at home crying myself to sleep or wondering if my husband was ok. I wondered when a friend was going to call to see how I was doing, or to say, hey, find a babysitter and we'll go out this weekend. Eventually I got over the crying stage and into a good routine with Jordan, found things to keep me occupied after she had gone to bed (nothing very productive, unfortunately). The past month has been a bit easier since I can talk to Dave every night, but those calls don't last too long and I eventually find myself alone, in a quiet apartment.
I have come to terms recently that this is my fault. How are people to know what I am feeling if I never talk about it? How are they to know I want to hang out if I don't ask them to? I have an amazing group of friends whom I talk to on a daily basis via internet, but 2 of them are out of the country, one lives in another state, and the last has 3 children (and a husband, need I say more... no, we do get together, today was fun!!!). My best friend has moved even farther away and has a very busy life. Another close friend just moved to Florida. It seems my number of available to hang out friends has dwindled. And how the heck is a pregnant mother of one supposed to make new friends? Its not going to happen. So if I want to stop sitting at home sulking every day, I need to let my needs be voiced. Only I can do this. But how?? I have tried to hint but maybe they are too subtle because I still don't get invites. In fact, one day I actually said "I NEED to hang out with people" and nothing... nada... was that not clear enough?
No wonder I've gained as much as I have with this pregnancy, food seems to be my only friend these lonely nights.
Monday, November 17, 2008
Excess Paper
I asked my mom the other day how long she keeps statements for. She responded "Just the previous month, unless I made a purchase on the credit card that I might have to refer back to, a big purchase, then I keep that statement as well". Right now I have every statement for 2008 filed. Maybe by 2012 I will have shredded them?
Friday, November 14, 2008
Some Photo Updates!!
Mommy put pigtails in Jordan's hair. SOOOOOO cute... though she was less than impressed. I might try a few more times to see if she gets used to them. These only stayed in about 3 minutes. I'd much rather do this than cut her hair, but she might leave me no choice.
My parents came over for dinner the other day and while my dad worked on my computer, Jordan and Grandma read books together.
When we were visiting Dave in Norfolk we went to the Aquarium and Marine Science Center. This neurotic squirrel was the highlight for Jordan... so glad I drove 9 hours for her to see something she could see at home!
With daddy at the Aquarium. It was difficult to get them both to look at the camera at the same time.
Jordan and mommy at the Aquarium. She did not want to be held!
Here is my little helper! I finally got around to vacuuming and swiffering the floors. Jordan LOVES to help and gets mad if I don't let her. Who am I to complain if my child wants to clean??
So that's about it around here. We're just back into our routines and life goes on. I have started thinking about Thanksgiving (pretty much daily) and am excited. I am in charge of dessert... thinking apple pies, mini pumpkin pies, mini raspberry/cherry pies, chocolate cake... mmmmmm!
Tuesday, November 11, 2008
Mean Blue Screen
So, hopefully my computer gets returned to me this week and decides to behave for me. *Fingers crossed*. I promise to be a better computer momma. I will make sure virus software is updated. I will make sure to safely remove hardware (no, I have not done this for months and am always plugging in and out my camera and ipod. bad bad me!), I promise to not let the cat walk across the keyboard while I am eating my cereal in the morning.
On a random note, I just found my new girl scout cookie supplier. Oh boy do I wish it was cookie season!!
Friday, November 7, 2008
A Severely Damaged Ego
God help me, I love a fat cat!!
Tuesday, November 4, 2008
30 Weeks Pregnant
Thursday, October 30, 2008
Another Journey to be Made
Sounds pretty easy, right? WRONG! Apparently the third trimester has decided I had it way too easy during the second trimester. Yesterday I was plagued by back pains and body aches that would make you think I was dying from the dreaded man cold. My nose goes from severely dry to severely runny and is now bloody when I blow it. I am ballooning up faster than a clown can make a balloon wiener dog. And I am TIRED. Oh so tired.
Of course... this won't be stopping me from having certain relations with my husband this weekend. Yes. This fat, swollen, tired, momma still thinks *that* way, so get over it ;)
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
This is NOT a two-way relationship
Are there any Ebay sellers out there that can give me some tips???
UPDATE: 11/5/08
My items DID sell! Woohoo! I didn't get as much as I wanted, but at least they sold and have been shipped. I am now about 10 dollars richer. I was also able to sell 2 pairs of shoes on craigslist. Niiiice. Now to go through all the rest of her 6-12 month clothes and all her 12-18 month clothes.
Sunday, October 26, 2008
Third Trimester!
I am officially in the third trimester at 28 weeks pregnant. Technically I am 28 weeks and 6 days today, but who is counting? I feel HUGE... I have been wondering lately if I will be able to fit through the door by the time Benjamin wants to arrive. They might have to tear the wall down, think my landlord would be upset? Jordan still doesn't understand that she'll be a big sister in 3 months. She did point to my belly when I was talking about the baby yesterday, so maybe she is starting to realize what is going on, but I think it was just a coincidence.
This pregnancy has gone so fast. No complaints really until recently. The third trimester is hitting me hard with fatigue, inability to sleep, and headaches. I am peeing so much at night I wake up mildly dehydrated which gives me a headache every morning. NOT a fun way to wake up. I have to admit, my biggest complaint is weight gain. I know it is ALL my fault. When we found out I was pregnant, I vowed to do better and not gain as much as I did with Jordan (52 pounds). Unfortunately I suck at controlling pregnancy weight gain and am doing WORSE than when pregnant with Jordan. at 28 weeks I have gained about 41 pounds. HORRIBLE!! I am so upset and ashamed with myself. Good thing I started 20 pounds lighter, but still... I am disgusted. Its a shame that my anger and disgust with myself is not enough motivation to keep things under control. Oh well, might as well enjoy Halloween, Thanksgiving, and Christmas, right?? =)
Saturday, October 25, 2008
Who says it pays to be nice??
Up until recently Jordan has not been known to have a gentle touch with people, critters, flowers, etc. But over the past few weeks nobody gets bitten, flowers have been touched more nicely, and cats are not purposefully kicked or stepped on. Today Roy was being his usual grumpy self on the sofa and Jordan was being incredibly sweet. What this video neglects to capture (unfortunately mommy turned the camera off too soon!) is that just moments after the clip ends, Roy decided he had enough kisses and thwacked Jordan in the dead center of her face!
So, lesson learned. It does NOT pay to be nice.
(EDIT TO ADD: I apologize for the quality. I JUST realized that you can't actually see Roy because of poor lighting... it was early, give me a break. He's that big fat black blob near the bottom. )
Friday, October 24, 2008
Navy Boot Camp Graduation
After that things only got better! =)
Navy Graduation Celebrations!
Jordan and Daddy back at the hotel after graduation. So happy to be together again!!
Goofing off at the hotel. Jordan was strangely attracted to this phone so I unplugged it from the wall.
Saturday we ventured into Chicago to visit the Children's Museum and the Navy Pier. I'm not a fan at all of driving in big cities, but somehow between Dave and I we managed not to get lost! Loving military IDs... we got in for free! The museum was fun, but most of it was geared towards children older than Jordan so we didn't stay too long. After wearing ourselves out at the museum we headed to the Pier for some massively greasy and delicious food!!
Dave heard the Jelly Belly factory/warehouse was near the hotel, so we decided to go Sunday morning. They had a cute free tour that told us all about how the company got started, how Jelly Beans are made, and other products the company makes. Afterwards you hold out the paper hats they gave you at the beginning of the tour and they fill them up with free samples! In the store at the end of the tour they have a sample bar where you can try different beans and salt water taffies. We were kids in a candy store... litterally. Couldn't resist buying more sugary treats!
Our parting was bittersweet. I hated leaving Dave, I just want our family to be together again. But at the same time an entire weekend of no naps and lots of travel made this preggo momma very very tired. I was glad to be going home to our apartment with our routine. Plus I missed the fur babies. (Who I am sure my parents spoiled just a little.) I take comfort in knowing I will be seeing Dave again very soon, and in not too long our family will be complete and together again.
Thursday, October 16, 2008
BYEEEEEE!
I will post updates and photos next week!!!
Sunday, October 12, 2008
Too Tired To Blog
As you can see, Jordan and I have been too tired this week to blog! Auntie Ceci and John are visiting, as is Ceci's sister, brother in law, and 3 nephews. It takes a lot out of us to hang out with that brood but its so fun that we can't resist. Cec did Jordan's hair while we were in the car... not sure this style will be repeated.
Monday, October 6, 2008
Pumpkin Time!!!
Saturday, October 4, 2008
The 26th Week
Great, now my baby can wink and flick you all off!
Friday, October 3, 2008
Fearless Toddler
Jordan has no problem wandering away from mommy, no matter where we are. We went to the Zoo last week and it was a madhouse at the entrance, so we started at the end... which is the aquarium. She doesn't even look back to make sure I am still there!
Brrrrrr.
Wednesday, October 1, 2008
One Word Answer Challenge
I’m challenging all of my blogging friends to play along. This is not as easy as it looks!
(Thanks Boo for some procrastination!!!)
Your hair? dry
Your mother? supportive
Your father? goofy
Your favorite thing (not including people)? chocolate
Your dream last night? unmemorable
Your dream/goal? togetherness
Your favorite drink? water
The room you're in? laboratory
Your ex? unwilling
Your hobby? knitting
Your fear? loneliness
Where do you want to be in 6 year? Virginia
Where were you last night? home
What you're not? skinny
Muffins? cupcakes
One of your wish list items? Dave
Time? slooooooow
Where you grew up? Pittsburgh
The last thing you did? coding
Favorite weather? breezy
What are you wearing? clothes
Favorite book? hamlet
Your TV? Old
Your pet? lazy
Your computer? new
Your mood? tired
Missing someone? family
Your car? green
Something you're not wearing? earings
Favorite store? Target
Love someone? Yes
Favorite color/shade? blue
Last thing you ate? yogurt
Your life? pregnant
Your friends? away
What are you thinking right now? home
What are you doing at this moment? Duh!
Your summer? stressful
Your relationship status? married
What do you do when you can't sleep? think
When is the last time you laughed? today
Last time you cried? yesterday
Letter Day!
Sunday, September 28, 2008
Dave Updates
September 15th he got his wisdom teeth out, just the left side. Only local anesthetic was used, so he was awake the ENTIRE time. Poor guy!! He's healed now and back to business as usual.
He passed the swimming test. Now he is concentrating on the Physical Fitness which he failed the first time. I think his next test is this week. Keep your fingers crossed that he passes!!
Dave has always had issues with shaving, if he shaves too often his face gets pretty cut up. In effort to stay clean shaven Navy standards, he really screwed up. So for the past month he's been put on what is called No Shave Chit. This basically means he's not allowed to shave at all until boot camp graduation. Dave is now fully bearded! I have NEVER seen him like that and so wish he was allowed to have a camera. His Chief Officer calls him Grizzly. LOL!!!
That's about it. Because its like "strict high school" Dave shuts his mouth and does what he is told and is rewarded for his maturity. Good boy!
Dave's birthday is next week (October 6th). So if you want to send him a card or a note then let me know and I will email you his address. I really want him to get my card ON his birthday, but I don't know how long it will take to get to him, so I bought a few and am sending them on different days. I'm such a dork!
Saturday, September 27, 2008
Birthday Girl!
Stuff I HAVE to do:
I have to wear a watch. Its not that I have to know what the time is, I just have to have it. Although I glance at my watch often throughout the day, I don't really pay attention to what the time is.
I always wear a bra. When pregnant with Jordan I started wearing sleep bras because of how big my boobs got. I haven't gone bra-less since.
I have to check my email at least every 10 minutes when at work.
I have to have my legs crossed in some way. I hate sitting with my feet on the floor. Even when I played flute I would often practice with my legs crossed. I once was sitting indian style on my bed and fell completely over when particularly moved by a passage I was playing. My flute got nicked, my stand was dented, and I am sure I looked like a complete fool.
I have to sleep with sheets, and usually a blanket. Even in the summer without a/c, I have a sheet.
I have to clean myself in a particular order in the shower: Wet hair, wash face, shampoo, conditioner (but don't rinse yet), shave, wash body, rinse conditioner.
I have to pay bills by check, not electronically.
That's it for now. May add on to the list another time. =)
Things that go Creak-a-Creak in the night
Friday, September 26, 2008
Daddy Doll
Tuesday, September 23, 2008
Well, THIS didn't happen last time
My veteran boobies are ready for ya Ben =)
Monday, September 22, 2008
Bigger every day....
Today I am 24 weeks pregnant. 5 months completed! I was thinking about my belly today and how this pregnancy is different than Jordan's pregnancy. According to "What to Expect When You Are Expecting" my uterus is now about 2 inches above my belly button. Apparently Ben has not received this memo. He much prefers to hang out below the belly button as if his home is staying the same size. Jordan, however, would go everywhere she was able to, especially higher up towards my ribs. This is the best part of the pregnancy though. No morning sickness, not too uncomfortable to do every day activities such as walking, and lots of lovely movement. I'm enjoying this while I can because before I know it I will hit that stage where nothing is comfortable, I won't be able to put on my shoes without some acrobatics involved, and everything below my belly will be greatly ignored.
Sunday, September 21, 2008
Internet Woes
I realized last night that when I move I will be moving not only away from the city I have lived for nearly 27 years (aside from 2 years of college, and 3 of my dad's sebaticals from work), I will be moving away from family whom I love dearly, and one of my closest Babyfit friends. She came over Friday to remind me that I'm not alone while Dave is gone. We bonded over stories about our children, past relationships, rodents, cats, and drunk men talking to women driving minivans at 8pm in her pjs. Gotta love this town. While we ate our delicious chocolate ice cream and were being stalked by a chocolate-thirsty kitty, I forgot for a moment that in about 7 months I won't be able to do this anymore.
I've never been one to make friends easily. Sure, I'm quite friendly with strangers, but to create real bonds with people takes work. It takes actually liking the person. It takes opening up and being accepting of yourself and confident in yourself. I am fortunate for the friends I have made in "real" life and on the internet. Thank you friends!