Honest Scrap Award

I received this award from Mary Beth the other day and have finally had a moment to fill it out. I hope you have learned something new. I always am excited to learn something new about someone I thought I knew pretty well.


Here are the rules for this award:
a) List 10 honest things about yourself - and make it interesting, even if you have to dig deep! and
b) Pass the award on to 7 bloggers that you feel embody the spirit of the Honest Scrap.

1. I am a lazy shaver. I hate shaving more than is necessary. Thank God Dave was away for most of this pregnancy because I really let myself go in that respect. In the summer I will shave my arm pits when I wear tank tops, and am getting better about shaving my legs (I used to just wear pants all summer to avoid it).
2. I am deathly afraid of tampons. I have never used one. I tried to insert one once, but it scared me. I can give birth twice but I can't stick a piece of material up my hooha.
   
3. I love my daughter to death but I said "I hate you" a few times to her when I was particularly down and tired and more worn out than any one person taking care of a child should ever be. I will never forgive myself for saying those words out loud.
   
4. I used to keep every piece of private mail ever sent to me. Unfortunately it took up way too many shoe boxes and I purged many of the letters I received over the past 20 years about 3 years ago. I am still really sad about it. The most important letters I kept were from a pen pal... not just any pen pal, but a soldier. In the 4th or 5th grade (maybe? I forget when actually) we had pen pals assigned to us at school, soldiers overseas. Mine wrote to me about the scorpions in his tent, and all sorts of things about living in the desert, what his home was like back in the states, etc. I have always wondered about him and if he ever made it home. I wish I could find him.
   
5. I can't get cable because I will watch too much TLC, Animal Planet, and Nick (because of me... not Jordan). I had cable once and watched Spongebob more than I would like to admit.
   
6. I seriously thought my college boyfriend was the ONE.
   
7. When I was pregnant with Jordan I stole my coworkers food when I worked on Saturdays and no one else was there. I blamed the weekend janitors.
   
8. Most people don't know, but I was hospitalized during college for OD'ing on Tylenol (this was the second mental hospitalization in a year). Not the brightest attempt. I am also a former cutter. I hate my scars. I hope my children never ask me about them because I still don't know how I will answer. When I am really upset and stressed out I occasionally think about cutting but would never do it again. It nearly made me lose Dave.
   
9. I find folding my children's cloths very relaxing.
   
10. I was never able to answer the question "what do you want to be when you grow up" when I was younger not because I wanted to be many things, but because I never saw myself as making it this far in life still alive. I am so very thankful I am here!!
    

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And now I pass on the awards to:
Sara
Kirsten
Emily
Kristy
Kelly
Melissa
Keeling